posted by ~*~VaNeSsA~*~ -- 10:51 p.m. (0) comments
Thursday, September 23, 2004
i think today was the first day that i realized how much i miss being at home....it's kinda wierd cuz i miss home more now than when i was in first year! well.... i can't say that i miss livin in a sort of constrained environment, but i miss being in tune w/ my family...
haha...i also call home a lot more often this year than last year =P ~LoL!~ i really enjoyed talking to my sister tonite... even tho it was about a lot of "mo lieu" stuff... it made me really happie!! hehe... while andrea was talking to me, there were momentary pauses in our conversation...that was when she was thinking of any special news she wanted to update me on!!! somehow..this makes me feel so loved...she actually cares enough now to update me on her life and what's goin on in all aspects.... hehe..she's so cute when she gets sooo excited in telling me about her day, her new friends, how she misses her old frenz... and how the situation is at home...and even BOYS?!?!?! lol.. so after each of our phone conversations, she somehow manages to make me in a better mood than before and just brighten up my day ^_^ there's a smile rite now on my face cuz of how far God has taken our relationship... funnie... when i left home last year, she was kinda one of the main ppl i wanted to get away from..and now she's the person i miss the most!!! hehe... wierd of things turn out !~ God thank you sooooooo much.... :D
posted by ~*~VaNeSsA~*~ -- 1:20 a.m. (0) comments
Saturday, September 18, 2004
wow!~ 2nd year is soooooo much harder than 1st year~
and i thought 1st year was bad!~ lol..now i'm kind of desperately wishing i was in first year so there would be significantly less crap to do! yeah....i'm feeling kinda bogged down w/ everything rite now... everything including: resume, cover letter, interviews, friggin 100's of pages to read per week, assignments, quizes, midterms, papers, projects, presentations, and friggin accounting events to go to like everynite!!!! and that's just the skool aspect....of coz there's gonna be well... my LIFE...
haha... yes...i do have a life... well...kind of...
this term, i've actually signed up to do a lot of stuff for CCF...ie. leading a bible study...and i'm really really REALLY looking forward to it =P it should be awesome, and even thought not that many ppl seemed interested in Steppin Stones, I think it's actually kind of a good thing... not that ppl aren't interested..but the way I see it..... the group will be a small bunch...and i luv small bunches.... i dunno why...but i thrive on them~ and i think it'ld be sooo awesome for all of us to get to know each other in a really close personal level... which is easier in a smaller setting. i can't wait to see what God intends to do for each of the cell group members this term =P i just hope, as betty said... that the ppl of ccf will eventually find a cell group that speaks to their needs in which they can really grow closer to U Lord. coolness...
grrrr....friggin Fed Hall changed it's rules this year...and now lil vanessa can't even get in cuz i ain't 19 yet...oh wellz...i guess it's a good thing...that way i won't get tempted or too distracted this term.... hehe..now i need another form of exercise jokes!
well.... it's been over a week..and to my surprise...my culinary skillz ain't as sad as it hought they were...~LoL!~ i can actually make half decent food most of the time =P *yay* the only bad thing is..that is takes SOOOOOOOO much friggin time!!! ahhh.... didn't know that =P oh wellz.... hehe... i guess i'll jsut keep tryin to cook as awesome as my mom! and as fast as her too...i dunno how she does it =P
that's it for now... afm work awaits me...grrrrr....
posted by ~*~VaNeSsA~*~ -- 11:13 p.m. (0) comments
Monday, September 06, 2004
As I write my final thoughts down of the summer, my heart goes out to my family. The past year has definitely been quite a big struggle for all of us.... experiencing new changes, new attitudes, new behaviours, etc... and as I prepare to leave my family once again, I'm left pondering what will happen when I'm gone... and although there is the phone, email, msn, and the occasional visits, it's just not the same as living here at home with my family. I know that there's a lot waiting for me in Waterloo but part of me wants to stay at home at least until things have calmed down and reached a stable stage...while the other part of me wants to get the *ell outta here asap...
as i'm typing this, my sister has just had another one of her *itch attacks... unfortunately, it really came at the worst timing possible - my parent's wedding anniversary was today. for some reason, these bad situations tend to suck all the energy and happiness out of my home and instead leave it's mark of tension, anger, and resentment. the mood is no longer light and happy, but melancholly and troublesome...
i would gladly just stay here for another couple of months, even enduring my change in lifestyle and the lack in independance while staying here at home just to see my sister have a change from her innermost being... i feel that just as my sister and I were really beginning to bond, that i must now leave for Waterloo..who knows what the atmosphere will be like when I return...and i hate being left out of the loop when it comes to family issues... I know that God will continue to work in her...and even thought it may seem as tho the end results are so far away... i'm sure that they will come...in His time, not ours. I thank God for his faithfulness and for always shining ever so brightly in what may sometimes seem to be my dark and weary path of life.... He really is the answer to everything and He's all I ever need.
"I Simply Live For You" - Hillsongs
Say the word and I will sing for You
Over oceans deep, I will follow
If each star was a song
And every breath of wind, praise
It would still fail by far to say
All my heart contains
I simply live, I simply live for You
Chorus:
As the glory of Your presence
Now fills this place
In worship, we will meet You face to face
There is nothing in this world
To which You can be compared
Glory on glory, praise upon praise
You bind the broken hearted
And save all my tears
By Your word, You set the captives free
There is nothing in this world
That You cannot do
I simply live, I simply live for You