The_Deep_Thinker

Monday, September 06, 2004

As I write my final thoughts down of the summer, my heart goes out to my family. The past year has definitely been quite a big struggle for all of us.... experiencing new changes, new attitudes, new behaviours, etc... and as I prepare to leave my family once again, I'm left pondering what will happen when I'm gone... and although there is the phone, email, msn, and the occasional visits, it's just not the same as living here at home with my family. I know that there's a lot waiting for me in Waterloo but part of me wants to stay at home at least until things have calmed down and reached a stable stage...while the other part of me wants to get the *ell outta here asap...

as i'm typing this, my sister has just had another one of her *itch attacks... unfortunately, it really came at the worst timing possible - my parent's wedding anniversary was today. for some reason, these bad situations tend to suck all the energy and happiness out of my home and instead leave it's mark of tension, anger, and resentment. the mood is no longer light and happy, but melancholly and troublesome...

i would gladly just stay here for another couple of months, even enduring my change in lifestyle and the lack in independance while staying here at home just to see my sister have a change from her innermost being... i feel that just as my sister and I were really beginning to bond, that i must now leave for Waterloo..who knows what the atmosphere will be like when I return...and i hate being left out of the loop when it comes to family issues... I know that God will continue to work in her...and even thought it may seem as tho the end results are so far away... i'm sure that they will come...in His time, not ours. I thank God for his faithfulness and for always shining ever so brightly in what may sometimes seem to be my dark and weary path of life.... He really is the answer to everything and He's all I ever need.

"I Simply Live For You" - Hillsongs

Say the word and I will sing for You
Over oceans deep, I will follow
If each star was a song
And every breath of wind, praise
It would still fail by far to say
All my heart contains
I simply live, I simply live for You

Chorus:
As the glory of Your presence
Now fills this place
In worship, we will meet You face to face
There is nothing in this world
To which You can be compared
Glory on glory, praise upon praise
You bind the broken hearted
And save all my tears
By Your word, You set the captives free
There is nothing in this world
That You cannot do
I simply live, I simply live for You

posted by ~*~VaNeSsA~*~ -- 6:50 p.m.

1 Comments:

Hey Vanessa! It's Alan. I was going to ask you about your blog, but then I found it off a link from Bao's blog hehe. I didn't know you had a blog too; yours looks pretty cool. :) Anyways, I guess I'll talk to you later at NSR. Cya!

By Theomnifish, at 4:02 p.m.