It's 10:45pm... same time, every single night
So it's 10:45pm... and while that may not seem like a very important time of the day, it is one of the most crucial to me..
it's been over 5 months and i think it's okay to be frustrated... i'm trying my hardest to be patient and understanding... i've adjusted myself to certain things.. through God's strength, I've been able to express more of myself and say things...
at what point in time do you ever think.... i've heard so many sorry's without a change of action... am i being judgemental? am i being a hypocryte?
at what point do you give up? at what point do you feel like you're just the queen of nagging and annoyance?
breathe. God is always in control and He is watching out for me.. He knows my needs and He brings me comfort and strength and PERSEVERANCE to last through these next few months..
considerate... what type of character trait is considerateness? it is not to be taken for granted just because you, or some other people you know are considerate... why are some people inconsiderate? the hurts and trials placed on me by others... it's not like they are personally targeting me and trying to make life difficult for me.. that's just mean... but i think it's more of.. not thinking about others and only thinking about oneself...
and in saying this... am i being really selfish? i yearn to have that self-less nature of Christ... to have His love in me so that I can share it with others... to be able to sacrifice for the sake of my King...
to what extent? to whatever God calls me to is the easy answer... yet... what about basic physical needs? like thinking about maslow's hierarchy of needs, this falls within level 1 or 2 on the very bottom... yet at the same time, God is the one who fills my needs.. He is the one who gives me everything that I need...
discipline... it's funny... God uses one of my strengths to teach me about one of my weaknesses...
i will always have a hard time understanding things that lack discipline... in anything, it's always easier to identify with one who has dealt with similar things and has the same characteristics as you do.. so this is how God wants to teach me patience...
neways... this blog is going to remind me that at 10:45pm every single night... that God is in control and that He will watch out for me and take care of me... and it is a reminder to be patient and to try to persevere...
Lord, please watch over this situation.
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