The_Deep_Thinker

Monday, June 11, 2007

Choices

quoting my mom,

"I am a very American/Canadian woman and your dad is very traditional chinese"

sometimes i really do think the way my parents think and their mindset on life is often like night and day... which ends up in... satisfying one yet disappointing another..

it's rather interesting... to one, i appear to be independent and have a good head on my shoulders... to the other, i appear to be immature, self-centered, and naive.

often, it's like phone tag... with a messenger in the middle... obviously not the best means of communication by anyone's standard... but at the same time, it's reality

so...action items... i need to ask for.. approval... opinion... debatable points... so that i can prove that i do respect and honour...

after all these years, it's still up to me to initiate... would you not expect the parnet to initiate? in the end, it doens't matter so long as things get out in the open...

i think the thing that gets me most are those four words... "I'm disappointed in you" those words will always be hard to live down... it's almost as if i can remember each time the phone tag messenger has sent me that msg over the past 5 years... each time, i take a hit, evaluate the msg, attempt to make amends, and move on...

if that's one thing i ever learnt growing up, it's to be independent. on another note, i'm very very thankful to have huge support from the other parent... that i know i should never take for granted.

posted by ~*~VaNeSsA~*~ -- 7:37 p.m.

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