it's been an interesting past few days back in waterloo... it seems like life has suddenly jolted and now i find myself down a very different path of life... still heading in the same direction but God's pushing me to take me out of my comfort zone again and surrender another part of me to Him again :)
it really does feel like my life in waterloo is like a whirlwind... i know that God is testing me now and He is "enlarging my territory" (prayer of jabez)... i feel like He's calling out to me now saying, "Vanessa, follow me. Keep your eyes focused on me. Trust me with every step you take. Do not let the world overwhelm you. Lean on me and you will no longer be tired and weary. Give me full control. Heed my teachings. Talk to me." let's put things back into perspective....
I praise God for the abundant blessings He's bestowed upon me... for the riches of all the relationships that He's blessed me with... for all the supportive brother and sisters He places in my life... I'm so thankful that He's given me so many opportunities this term already... and it's only the 2nd day of class... Thank you Lord for re-confirming your calling for me this term... Lord, may I continue to seek your face day by day to live out Christ in me... May Your kingdom come here on campus... may Your will be done.May Your name be lifted high and exalted above all other things... may the truth of Your message ring true in the ears of the lost... may You keep pursuing me and deepening my relationship with You... may You keep knocking at the doors of my innermost being and teach me to be Your humble servant... may You keep pruning me so that my life will continuously move closer towards reflecting Christ... may You keep speaking to me so that i will repent and turn back to You...
I know my God's bigger than anything anyone can possibly throw at me... i really want to entrust my mind to You... i know You won't give me things beyond what i can handle... i thank You for taking me through such a trying mental journey these past two weeks... You've shown me things that i needed to resolve within myself that i never even knew needed resolving... but thank you for forcing me to dig up my past fears and incorporating them into my decision-making... it was just about one of the hardest things i've had to do since those two things happened... thank you for allowing me to serve You in so many ministries this term...
alrite... i think things are more mentally resolved now=)