Take my heart, I Lay it down At the feet of you whose crowned Take my life, I’m letting go I lift it upto You who’s throned
And I will worship You, Lord Only You, Lord And I will bow down before You Only You Lord
Take my fret, take my fear All I have, I’m leaving here Be all my hopes, be all my dreams Be all my delights, be my everything
And It’s just you and me here now Only you and me here now
You should see the view When it’s only You
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i first heard this song sung at Campus Challenge... i really like it =) brings things back into perspective... yeah... it's been a few crazy busy weeks, hence no time to blog... but thankfully, this week's a bit lighter right before the final push of finals... and i finally have some time to sit down and reflect over the past few weeks...
updates..hmm...
i'm still unsure of where I am being called to minister next term... if God really asks me to let go of ccf, it's gonna be tough.. it's been my spiritual home for the past three years here in waterloo.. not to say that i won't attend anymore, just significantly less actively i suppose... over the past few weeks, it's kind of been like a tug of war wrt seeking my calling for next term... on the one side, God has answered my specific prayers in amazing ways and has given me opportunities to witness more... but then on the other hand, He's also really blessed me these past few weeks with the edifying presence, conversations, and prayers with lotz of brothers and sisters from ccf... i can't do both... i just wanna be obedient... Lord show me the way =) hehe... i'm sure He will...
i've been reading Revelations recently... if anyone has any really good infomraiton about the various theories of eschatology, let me know =) but yeah.. reading it has definitely got me thinking... even tho i may not understand the finer details of exactly how everything will pan out or which theological viewpoint i take on it, i've been thinking everytime i read a chapter that things are going to be bad... they're really really going to suck... the brokenness, sorrow, and pain we expeirence here now is like nothing compared with what's to come... it's actually a pretty scary thought, especially considering that brokenness is so apparent now in ppl's lives.... it's been more of a warning to me that the days ahead are goin to be tough..so much death, pain, famine, disease, darkness, deceivery... it's about as close as a living hell on earth as you can get.... my recollecitons can't really describe it, if your'e curious, go read revelations in detail yourself... reading revelations has been a constant reminder of the Great Commission... when i read it, ppl's names pop up into my head... and i fear that they will be left behind to face all these tribulations... i don't want them to... this has prompted me to really begin to pray harder for ppl's salvations... i want to see them when i get "up there" someday... i think part of my problem is that, in all honesty, i'm so used to living my life here on earth that i barely internalize the fact that Christ could come back at anyday... at the moment espeically when we least expect Him to... i rarely ever think about this... that's kinda bad... would i be living my life differently if i knew that He was coming, say... 1 year from today... the 'correct' answer would be that i should be living as if He coudl come anyday... i don't think i'm there yet...
in other news, i find this term that i've been discovering more of myself this term... i think when ppl tell me things, my brain starts producing thoughts at a very rapid pace... sometimes, i can't even keep up with my own thoughts... haha wierd... especially since i started taking psych 213: excpetional children and psch 312: learning disabilities... those two courses basically covered off every child's problems growing up, reasons behind it, symptoms, intervention strategies... ugh... so now that i have all that knowledge stuck in my head... it automatically pops up when i'm talkign with people... uncontrollably almost... i never used to psycho-analyze all these situations as critically as i do now... i can't not think about it either... they jsut come automatically... and it defintiely gives me a sneak peak at what ppl could possibly be dealing with behind all their exterior layers... gives me more specifics in what to pray for them... but at the same time, while this can be useful, it can also be overwhelming at times... with certain ppl... after talking with them, my brain can get overloaded with empathetic thoughts... i need to learn to directly translate those thoughts into prayers for ppl...
going home tmr (wed) overnite... will be able to see extended relatives from hk =) and go to a PwC event DT as well... hope that goes well... also get to hang out w/ family again... their visit up to waterloo last saturday was, altho unexpected, very cool =P haha.. and many thanks for marianne, alex lam, herman, and jane mok for helping me clean up the house... it still looks amazing, even a few days later =) it's cool to see other ppl using their spiritual gifts... that was an awesome exercise of the gift of serving... thank you.