time for another "real" post.. hehe i haven't written a real one in awhile... the last one doesn't count =P
it's wierd...i find the sudden urge to slow down in life and relax and blog...but i don't really have that much to say... i've been doing better these past 2 weeks... thanks for your prayers, emails, and msgs... not feeling as overwhelmed with stuff =P and slowly learning to let go and take each day at a time...
over the past weekend, i've had a lot of really good conversations with people catching up and seeing how they're doing =) staying up very late hours... haha... definitely later than i have been sleeping for the past while (10pm) but it's all well worth it.
i think the past weekend made me think a bit more... about things i haven't thought about for the past while being back in the toronto area working... haha...
- ccf stuff.. wow... dunno really even where to begin... i'm beginning to see that i'm very attached to it... not ccf as an organization, but more ccf, the people... God's people... it's always hard to come away and hear of so many people hurting and wandering in their faith, struggling a lot just to get by, or even getting burnt out... or just passionate and lost simultaneously about how to further God's kingdom in and through ccf.... i think i've come away with one thing in mind: PRAYER... all the visits and talks with brothers and sisters will do no good without prayer.... let's take the burdens off our own shoulders and lift them up to Him... pray in faith and trust that the Lord will deliver in His time according to His sovereign plan.
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i think within the span of the past 3 months, i've been asked numerous times why i'm not as shy i claim i used to be... =P it's funny... people cannot see it at all... but i think if you really know me well enough, you might be able to see it appear every now and then... more often than you would think...
i still like to keep to myself at various times.. and times of solitude and just alone time are cherished =P
i can be completely happy and content in a group of people, not saying much... and there are situations in which i will choose to be quiet.
why is it that "shy people" seem to have negative connotations? i'm sure that many of us have at one point in time looked down upon the "shy people" probably without even realizing it... do we kinda brush the "shy people" off and pay less attention to them simply because we deem them "harder to get to know"? there are so many misconceptions of "shy people"....
somehow.... we appear to others as not being as strong... completely untrue.... shyness as a personality trait is not postively correlated with one's strength in character.
we appear to be unconfident.. while this may not be the case.... there could be many other reasons as to why we are shy... reasons that run much deeper than simply "lacking in confidence"... we could be brought up that way (not to raise our voice, share our opinoins with "elders") or we could have very deep painful pasts to which we don't want to share with others... pasts that have kinda built up walls around us as a sort of protection from the outside world.... i dunno there's a lot more reasons.... they may not be good reasons.... but they are still there...
shy people are "boring"... hahahaha SOOO not true! =) enough said... we're the coolest people ever =) hehe of course i'm a bit biased... just get to know us.
and it's actually not that hard to get to know us... as you open more of yourself then we will also open up more of ourselves to you... it goes both ways =) hehe i have no clue where this blog is going.... haha so i will stop it here.