The_Deep_Thinker

Thursday, November 24, 2005

thankful for: life.

do not take it for granted... i've been thinking recently... i guess rite now, i just feel so taken care of by God... dunno really how else to put it...

me @ age 2: diagnosed with kawasaki disease (http://www.kdfoundation.org/)
* cause: to this day, there is still no evidence for any known causes of kawasaki; hence, it can't be prevented
* details: primarily affects young children (prevalent in azn children)
- inflammation of blood vessels throughout the body
- cause abnormal changes in the coronary arteries and other areas of the heart
- most serious health threat = aneurysm (ballooning of blood vessel wall) --> diagnosis and treatment is KEY
- leading cause of acquired heart disease in children
- to be quite honest...i dun really know what all that means....all i remember area a couple of flashbacks i can remember from the Sick Kids Hospital... not pretty... i remember stories of how weak i was when i got back from the hospital... couldn't even climb 1 stair.

i seldom think about kawasaki..and it wasn't even until 2nd year of university that i actually bothered to learn even what this disease entailed... but i do remember randomly thinking a couple times through high school and perhaps even towards the end of elementary school why i was allowed to live. i really could have died back when i was two... and thus prolly started my searching for the purpose/meaning of life.

me in Gr. 12: contracted pneumonia
* aka "fai yeem"...
* details: inflammation of the lung caused by infection with bacteria, viruses, and other organisms.
- usually triggered when a patient's defense system is weakened, most often by a simple viral upper respiratory tract infection or a case of influenza

i began to think more about life after i got pneumonia...it was during the Christmas break >_< booo...wasnt' able to go out wtih family and frenz and even managed to skip gr 12 final exams for term 1..or not skip, but they got moved to a later date... and i think it took like a full half year to get fully recovered...

every time i hear of someone with lung cancer or some other disease/problem with the lungs, my heart always goes out to them..it is the worst feeling in the world to have trouble breathing...to know that you are having trouble breathing... to try to suck in air, but feeling so weak... yeah... after pneumonia...i've developed asthma (GRR)...

and it was only after i had fully recovered that my parents somehow ended up telling me that i could have died yet again...the whole time i had pneumonia, it hought it wasn't a real serious case, or even life-threatening... good thing they didn't tell me back then... but i just remember thining after finishing high school, why did God spare me for the second time?

me in 3rd year university: well... my life was spared once this term...i'ld rather not get into the details..but yeah.... so here i am sitting in my room pondering again... yet this time, something's different... i feel so loved, so very well taken care of... i'm full of gratitude rather than incessant questioning... there are things in this life that i will never understand and it's not for me to understand... i really feel like God has given me this life and I should live it to the full. Live in a way that glorifies Him... live a life of service and gratitude... live life purposefully. my life is worth nothing if God's not in it... simply put --> life live to worship my Father

posted by ~*~VaNeSsA~*~ -- 5:44 p.m.

2 Comments:

hi vanessa =)

wow praise God for watching over you!

By sajoy, at 8:01 p.m.

this song is sooo approriate... well... learned soo much about u... really never knew... well i guess i wouldn't have unless u told... but ya... God does work wonders and there is a reason for everything that happens no matter good or bad... i'm glad i met u... we should really get to know each other more... hope the scare this term wasn't that bad... God bless!

By Anonymous, at 3:17 a.m.