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Saturday, November 12, 2005

"mommy, if i get a boyfriend, will you get mad at me?"
"no... i will just get concerned"

HAHAHHAHAHHA....so jokes!!!!!! ^_^ nice one andrea...

haha...while giving advice to my little sister about guys.... she says:
"but the guys at your university are a lot different than the guys in my school" (my school = ELEMENTARY skool) lol...meaning that stuff i say cannot relate to her silly gr 8 "adventures"

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on a more serious note... the 2 hr phone call with my lil sis was great...i actually really miss her now and that was the first time we ever talked for that long on the phone together. God is so good... I can see that He is definitely working in her... she's becoming more mature... well... minus the whole guys part... she seems to be somewhat diggin deeper into her faith and also the different family relationships... it's encouraging...

i was reminded again of the past...well when i was working last winter.... the same issue is there... i've kinda forgotten it while being here in waterloo 2 terms straight... and while i have truly forgiven... i can still be reduced to tears... they didn't fall tonite... but the thought of how much hurt it can cause another so close to me.... it's tough.... it's ok.... the Lord is in control. I will take part of Christ's sufferings...

spiritual battles --> conviction, commitment, courage.... i wonder how *********** goes through it... i wonder whether the thoughts of my last post have ever gone thru his mind.... who is there to support him? is he repenting? is he hiding? is he lying to himself? have i been wrong about him all these years? *trust* ... i dun wanna think about it... just wanna pray about it... my heart is heavy once again... (incoherent thoughts abound)

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so i wrote that post late last nite... today (sat afternoon), i'm sitting in my room and i really can't concentrate on that psych essay that i've gotta finish this weekend... and have yet to start...

excuse me for being really cryptic now...but i need to cry out to God...
again, that deep dark hidden issue arises... and i am at a loss... the littlest things that are related can seemingly rip me apart... things at school, church, fellowship, the mall, anywhere... and it only really hit me yesterday nite again... what is God trying to tell me?? *seeking the Lord*

1 Corinthians 13:6-7
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

how easy is it to say that we love someone?

- not delighting in evil --> the evil is there.... it hurts... badly
- rejoicing with the truth --> Even in the midst of such a broken and depraved world... God's truth stands firm through eternity... never will i forget His truth... never will i cease to worship My Lord...
- PROTECTS, TRUSTS, HOPES, PERSEVERES.

Serenity Prayer: i might have put this in my blog before..i forget...

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change,
the courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
enjoying one moment at a time;
accepting hardships as a pathway to peace.

Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;

Trusting that He will make all things
right if I surrender to His Will;

That I may be reasonably happy in this life,
and supremely happy with Him forever in the next.