Hmmm... before i start bloggin about the actual cruise... i need to vent a bit...
i think there are only two primary things of this world that have the ability to majorly piss me off or make me extremely unhappy... and when i think about it more now.... i get rather frustrated with myself... why is it that I get frustrated with these two things(people) and i don't seem to get as frustrated with poverty, materialism, natural disasters, etc... who am i becoming? why aren't the more important issues of this world striking me harder and compelling me do to something about it or to pray more about it? only God knows... i suppose i gotta deal with these two things that have the ability to push my inner buttons consistently... one has died down over the past year and i truly praise God for that... the other... well.... still looms in the dark... waiting for a chance for it to arise again.. over and over again... what is this sin that so easily entangles??
when you are being wronged, how easy is it to turn the other cheek? i suck at this..... really really suck... and there lies all the resentment in my heart... God, only you can take it out...
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now about that Caribbean cruise :)
*YAY* it was great =P came back with a nice sun tan... not terribly dark, but it's good enough lol... hmmm... i think i was expecting to really spend some major reflection and meditation time with me an God but instead, i found myself chillin a lot with my lil sis... i guess this is what God had in store for me...
during the trip, i felt like i had been taken back 5 years to the age of 13 - 17 (gr 8 - gr 12) ... first of all... on the first day of the cruise, i was given soooooooooo many blank stares and confusion when I told people I was actually 18+ and i needed to fill in my own immigration and customs forms and other random stuff... and as well all throughout the trip... people could not believe i was not in high school... o_O boooooooo for looking young... oh well... that set the stage i suppose... for chillin with all high school kids the whole trip... it was.... interesting to say the least...
i think by hanging out with these kids God was showing me how to "liu gai" my sister more... epecially how she thinks and acts at her age... haha....apparenty i'm "worse than mom" and overly protective... eeeeek...i can't help it... i think i gotta learn to let go of her sometime... it's hard... man...another thing i learned...was how boy crazie kids are... eeeek... omg... it was a very wierd and uncomfortable experience... chasing guys on the cruise ship and stalking them... i'm not joking...this is what people found very fun and adventerous... checking guys out... trying to say "hi", and get their name and email, trying to find their room on the ship, trying to set people up.... there were many times when i kinda faked exhaustion to escape from having to do these things... there is one thing to keep in mind..the guys we were chasing... OMG they were like 3 to 6 years younger than me... it's so nasty...and at the same time i had to force myself to look enthused and not come across as anti-social or give off the "i'm too cool for you" vibe... it's wierd... when my sister is enjoying all these boy chasing escapades, she manages to tell my mother a couple... and to my surprise, my mom doens't care one bit... she just says that andrea's very into boys now and leaves it at that... man... i dunno how she does it... how to let her learn to make her own mistakes... haha.... twas good times... i'm thankful for the cruise-time... ate TONZ... gained some... meh~ tis all good...
