*puts thinking cap on*
stress..... needless to say, for most poeple, final exams bring much stress... and over the past 3 terms i've been super at being stressed, whether due to school, co-op, other issues, etc.... but this term's been different.... there's been a constant sense of... relief, hope, and encompassing peace....
this is honestly the first term i can say that i carry around with me the least stress...and that there is truly peace in my life, fully knowing, acknowledging, and praising God for providing me with it all...
and at the same time.... there is a sense of uneasiness....not in my life, but in the lives of others... hmmm..this is very hard to put into words.... my brain is lacking brain cells at the moment =P recently, i think i've been seeing a shadow of who i once was through the life of someone else... and it all relates back to stress.... i've seen how stress can completely change a person's behaviour, attitude, emotional health, etc... and worst of all... i've seen how it causes people to focus solely on themselves... and now being a bystander to all these bad effects of stress, i find myself at a loss of words... in trying to cheer others up, it kinda fails... in trying to explain why and how there can be peace.... the msg is not heard.... i feel like in sympathizing with others, i find myself more and more pushed aside... there's a voice in the back of my head calling out saying... "I know...i understand... be patient... look around...and learn..... " learn what? good question... *scratches head*
- God calls us to be a light unto the world... how exactly do we do that? are we being too consumed in our own agendas (even if they a spiritually-related) to be that light.. it is almost as if having our own "spiritual" agendas is worse than having our own "non-spirtiual" agendas (ie. school, career)... they are so much more dangerous... and it takes a while to realize that BOTH are self-centered if they overcome our submission to Him... what do I mean by spiritual agendas? --> mapping out all the end results we want to achieve that are somewhat biblically based and using our own means to get there.... in doing so, many times we overlook our role and position in God's work... it shoudl be God accomplsihing things in and through us, rather than us accomplishing things for God..... hmmm.... at the end of the day, can i honestly say that i'm letting go of everything and allowing GOd to do the work... sometimes yes, sometimes no....
why not? cuz i dun take enough time to give Him the glory. it's not about me...it's all about You.
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