The_Deep_Thinker

Friday, June 03, 2005

A diffenet perspective:

i don't quite know how to put this into words... but i'll have a go at it =P

so, as you all know, i'm now in my 2B term, which is supposed to be the hardest term for accountants. But on the contrary, I feel as if it has been the easiest term for me to balance schoolwork with everything else... when people ask me how i do it.. i jsut think... i don't.... it's not me doing it, it's purely God... cuz honestly, it's like God has taken my horrible time management skillz and raised them to a new level this term...

so now...it's not like i'm immune to getting bad marks (^_^, first quiz = 60%)... but it's more like immunity to the pissed-off after-feelings of getting bad marks... if you try your best in all you do, whatever mark is suffice... the amount of effort you put into your studies correlates with your mark... marks are not the be all and end all of a person... they shouldnt' hold so much power to label a person as dumb, unintelligent, and worthless in our society... i guess these were the feelings i've endured over the first 3 terms of university... and now looking back in retrospect, it's such a hard thing to comprehend... jsut the feeling of being loved regardless of your marks...

i guess i'm really really really thankful to God for taking care of me this term... in a physical, emotional, mental, and most importantly spiritual sense...

physical... hahahahaha... i really never think about this part... lol..but for some odd reason, i find myself striving to eat more healthy and exercise to keep in shape.... i guess it is a part of honouring God with our bodies.... something that i might not have been doing for a while...

emotional... this term, i feel more free...and able to express my emotions.... and it's totally okay to express them... sometimes emotions are fickle tho... i guess what's importnat is giving up your emotions to GOd... sounds kinda wierd... but guess it's a really hard thing, to surrender your emotions to God... this is espeically shown in the way in which we deal with the trials in our lives... so instead of remaining angry or stressed or worried.... (this is so hard to put into words)... try to become more at peace with the situation... this is not to say that one cannot be annoyed, sad, exhausted.. but more so of not getting so tied up in the crap you are dealing with to fail to recognize that God is at work in the situation... there will be times of sadness, times of mourning, times of hurt, and times of seeming unfairness.... but let your emotions be guided by God's ultimate principles: He will never leave you nor forsake you.

mental... i really believe that God gives each person soooooo many endless opportunites to invest themselves in... in my mental frame, I can feel God giving me new passions and new desires... but i think the sole mental state that we should always maintain is this: just to simply run after God every single day... if you've truly got your mind set on seeking the Lord and His Kingdom every day, your heart will be in tune with God's plan... for everybody, seekign GOd everyday is a constant struggle we all deal with... a constant mental battle between living for ourselves and living for God... and i do realize that there have been so manyt imes that I ahve been living for myself... those are the times that i am so lost within my own pride... God constantly pulls me out from those mentally-deprived states... Praise Him..

spiritual... embodied in the above three states...

posted by ~*~VaNeSsA~*~ -- 12:59 p.m.

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