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Monday, November 01, 2004

it's been awhile since i last had a post about guyz...yeah...unfortunately, there are currently a bit of guy issues.... nothing that GOd can't handle...

i guess the biggest issue is how i handle myself.... is it in tune with how God is wanting me to act? or is it completely out of my own selfish desires? i dunnos....

i've realized that i've made some mistakes in the past...(recently actually) that i definitely need to correct.... i find myself doing things that i NEVER would have done ever...and prolly would have looked down upon if someone else had done it. i guess i never realized that something that i intended to be completley innocent may not be so innocent afterall... yeah...bad choices made by me... but thankfully...they're now in the correction phase... i dun wanna unintentionally give anybody the wrong signals...

on that note... i also have issues deciphering other ppl's signals towards me.... and after talking with Blanche, i realized that i really gotta become more sensitive and perceptive to those around me... especially with these guy/girl type situations... dun wanna get myself into crap... gotta learn to take things slow... grrr..hehe...i think too much sometimes.... overthinking.... thank GOd i've been able to give all my worries to God regaridng the whole skool/life balance...but in the department of relationships.... i'm still lacking... Father God... may Yur will be done....

Father, i'm so undeserving of Yur love...i do so many wrong things, yet yur always there, watching over me every step along the way.... never giving up on me, even when i seemingly gave up on You Lord... i'm sorry, plz forgive me.... You have shown me your neverending love and infinite power day in day out... and i'm forever grateful to you for answering my prayers... i'm still learning to have full and complete faith and trust in You Father... thank you for being so patient with me. my heart is Yurs for the taking Father....

~ Amen ~

posted by ~*~VaNeSsA~*~  -- 4:27 p.m.

3 Comments:

Hey Vanessa! I'm glad that you're trying to give all your relationship problems and stuff. He's the only one who reallly knows what's best for us. I wish I'd given up my relationships up to God sooner, then maybe I wouldn't be in this mess with my god-sister right now. I've also made a lot of mistakes that I still regret now. But I think I'm learning to trust God more in this area as time goes by...I guess I'll learn eventually, right? :)

By Blogger Theomnifish, at 11:16 p.m.  

Hey Vanessa, it's always important too know that God is there for us...even if it's for the weirdest things...lol but it is even greater knowledge that God does not laugh at us for what we say, rather he comforts us and gives us strength. Remember also advice from your lil' bro...take it easy!!!!!!!!!! there is time for such relationships and whenever in doubt (though it is nice to ask people for their opinions) God will be there too direct us always.

Ciao

By Blogger Edgard J. Abano, at 7:36 p.m.  

my dearest girl,
its my first time on for a long long while and boy... what i'm missed. reading your post just melted my heart to see that the Lord is truly working in your life. Hallejuah! For i know that He has great plans for you... despite these "trials" that we both seem to always get ourselves in (right? haha) I can totally relate to where you're coming from and let me tell you my dear, that for me, it truly took giving up my WHOLE heart to the Lord in order to realize i needed change, to see change or even to want that change. Praise God that you have realized this and all those past talks about being "innocent" or "unware", well.... i'm sorta chuckling at myself. We only realize when we fall eh? man, that sucks... but its through those situations that we alwasy grow stronger and closer to Him. He is ever so faithful and loving. Am always here for you my dear, in my prayers and my heart.
much love. - dren.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 11:34 a.m.  

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