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Monday, June 14, 2004

This summer, i wanted to find a "home" church that i could go to when i'm back at home during weekends and when i have co-op, but it doesn't seem like that's gonna happen. From, Upper Room, i really felt that God was telling me that He's happy with me right where I am. So, i guess the plans have changed this summer~ i had actually wanted to get baptized sometime durign this summer if possible, but i guess it's God's timing... i'm not quite sure when that is, but again, I'm where God wants me to be, but at the same time, i cna't ignore God's plan for me so... yeah! hehe...so far, i've visited Markham Chinese Baptist Church (Mike's church), Toronto Chinese Mennonite Church (Jeff's church), and Orthodoz Christian Reformed Church of Toronto (Louise's church).

I actually really enjoyed the service and worship at MCBC, but the community there wasn't especially warm and friendly. Both Lorna and I felt the same way, so actually this upcoming week we'll be visiting her friend's church. it was nice to see some summer skool friends again~ Yeah... surprisingly, or maybe not so much, i didn't get to see Mike there. I actually think that's a very good thing, because I think that would distrct me from the service for sure. i know things will always be unresolved regarding him, but u know, there's always that little hope.. haha, lorna and i talked about my "plan of action" when i would see him, but that day never came, so good! no need for me get flooded with all Mike emotions again, not that it would surely happen. they're more like pissed of at mike emotions haha. well, i guess the first always remains a part of ya eh? lol, just memories.... =P

On to the 2nd church, well, this would be jeff's church. the worship was awesome here and their new pastor was good. Storing your treasures in heaven was a very good reminder, i know that someitmes i store them here on earth... I liked the sermon, but it reminded me of TC-like sermon. it didn't go into as much depth as i expected, but that's ok. there was a bit of awkwardness at his church cuz when i was introduced to some of jeff's friends, i got the feelings that they already knew stuff about me... and knowing how complicated out situation is.. yeah... i dunno what's going on here. i know the time i was in hk was good for me, just to kinda relieve myslef from these stresses for a bit and figure out what's goino n. and i thougth i knew.. but after keeping closer contact with him recently, i dunno again... sighz..such a complicated thing. plus, i dunno what he's feeling.. i think we need to talk about it soon...

well, Louise's church! actually, i really really enjoyed Louise's chruch. i was so impressed with the church... i had been kind of expecting the same style as the previous Christian Reformed chruches that i've been to, but this church struck me as very very different. I liked the sermon a lot, it was on 'the significnace of profession of faith". Although the worhsip style is different, we can still worship God through differnet musical styles..it's what comes from the heart, and this chruch definitely has heart! the people at this chruch were sooooo friendly! i felt right at ease at this church. i chatted with some of Louise's friends, all of which were very friendly and open..not just shallow talk, but even on a deeper level.. and it's always awesome to see a sister in Chrsit take the next step of faith in the profession. i feel bad for not keeping in contact with Louise over the past 2 years, but i do intend to chill with her, mandy, and perhaps joyce over the summer.. that'ld be really nice. hehe, and it's always nice to see mandy! *yay*

Each of these churches is extremely differnt from one another. i find it quite facinating actually. i never understand why there has to be so much church politics amongst different church denominations. this is one thing that i get so confused about, especially since going to TDCH, where it is predominantly Dutch Christian Reformed. we're all brothers and sisters in Christ with the same mission. we dont' have to agree on every doctine, but we should be united. this is something that i'll look more into.