First off, thank you so much for your prayers, text messages, emails, and support! I really feel so blessed and thankful to have a great spiritual community in my life! I want to share with you all what God has been speaking to me - especially in light of the career book we are going through at small group now. For those of you who don't know, I started a new job on Monday, quit on Friday and will return back to my previous employer full-time sometime this week or next week.

So Friday was probably one of the hardest days to get through at work. I had 3 separate conversations with my supervisor. The first conversation at 8:30am didn't go as planned as the supervisor wanted to make some accommodations for me in terms of start/end times to allow for more flexibility. His really supportive approach caught me off guard and I didn't know what to say at that point. After speaking with Alexis that morning, he helped reconfirm that we felt it was best to leave and take my old position back. I then proceeded to have another conversation with my supervisor with the most open and honest intentions. I told him about my poor health, the reasons behind why my career priorities are centered around work/life balance, how I was pretty drained this week from the longer hours, and how my expectations of what this position would be like doesn't match up with their work environment. I even told my supervisor about my struggles this past week about feeling unethical/unprofessional during my decision making process about whether I should return back to my previous employer. I also let him know that my old position only became available to me as a permanent position a few days after I started this position.

and THANK GOD my supervisor took everything so well. He was so understanding. God is so good! He reassured me that while it sucks for him from an HR perspective, he understands that these decisions are not always clearcut and that family should always come first. I know that God was with me during the entire conversation. Then at the end of the day, I handed in my resignation letter and he consented to my resignation.

As Alexis and I were sitting in the car waiting to cross the border into Seattle, (it was a LONG 45 mins wait), I called my Mom in Toronto and updated her on the situation. She told me that she was praying for me with her best friend and God spoke to her as to why I had to go through this tough job turnover experience. I really respect her thoughts and I trust in her spiritual guidance as she is really in tune with the Lord's calling.

She told me that she noticed that my attitude was not right with God as I started to look for full-time permanent positions a few weeks ago. I mentioned a few times to her that "I wouldn't mind going back to the Student Society (where I used to work) if an opening became available". She noted that this line stemmed from an attitude that was not grateful. There was no thankfulness in my heart to God or recognition and praise to God for the wonderful blessing this previous job has been for the past 9 months. She also noted that it was my own career-oriented pride that also disabled me from finding true joy and gratefulness in my previous work place as I was always wanting to look for a more challenging job elsewhere. Whereas in reality, this job I've worked at since July has been one of the biggest blessing in my life - with excellent work life balance. My mom knew that this job was perfect for me already especially given my poor physical health and she knew I loved it. God wanted to strip it away from me and give me a challenging job that I thought I wanted in order for me to realize my own pride and ungratefulness. It was also God's timing that my old position became available so that I could even go back there permanently. God is so good!!!!

As Alexis and I were listening to my mom in the car, we couldn't agree more with what she has said with regards to my job turnover in the past week. Definitely a good lesson to learn.

So thanks to each of you for your part in God's revelation to me about whole hearted submission to Him over my career.